Perfectly imperfect!

Recently I have been reading a book by the comedian Dawn French, where she writes about the many mistakes she has made in her life. It is quite a big book! Of course, she makes it all sound very funny; and she laughs along with us as she recounts her stories.

How are you with dealing with your mistakes? I must admit that laughing about mine, of which there are also many, is not something I find easy to do. There is still an aspect of me, the inner child, which needs to be liked or loved by everyone, because this part of me has not connected with the Love within. My little girl thinks she must be perfect and has failed when she isn’t. Phew! This is hard work and not a lot of fun. In fact, disappointment, to say the least, is the result.
 
I am learning through all this to be more kind to myself. We all make mistakes; it is part of being human. However, I have also been thinking more recently, that my spiritual journey is not about making myself a better or perfect human being, because of feeling unloved or unworthy. My ego thinking cannot do this anyway. I am not a problem to be fixed and nor are you.
 
For me, my spiritual journey is about reconnecting with my spiritual Self that is pure, loving, wise, free and radiant. Letting this beautiful energy shine though me. For it is this energy, the Pure, wholesome love and life of God that changes me, heals the wounds of the inner child and sets me free. Now my human and spiritual qualities can merge. This begins with acts of loving kindness and acceptance.
 
Through personal experience, I have discovered that I cannot force change when I think I am not good enough. I just get more of the same - not feeling good enough. My experience is that it is not my effort, my thinking, which changes me. It is God energy through me, through us, the Christ within, which does the work. Right now, for me, life is less about trying to be perfect and more about accepting and laughing more at my mistakes, apologising when I have hurt another and tuning into God within, thus letting my inner light shine.
 
Like Dawn French, can we laugh at our mistakes? Can we know our mistakes do not define us? We are not just human beings. We are spiritual beings, having human experiences, which are here to wake us up to the beautiful, radiant beings we are in the mind of God. 

Rev Kimerie Mapletoft
Director of Silent Unity and Daily Word UK